a short one...NOT

juz found out that he will be transferring to ASK... ish... (ASK= akademi seni kebangsaan, local uni for performing arts)

i dunno wat to say... i want him to go so that i won't think about him... yet... i want him to stay... my god... y am i so贱?!!?? T.T

very hard la... letting go is hard...

but of course i dun want him to know this.. hehe...

me thinks i should slap myself for being so 下贱...

told myself to let go adee one la...

told myself not to think so much adee la...

but... (==!!!

oh and i drank beer for d past two nights... altogether downed one can of tiger on d 1st day n one small bottle of carlsberg for d 2nd day... found out that carlsberg is nicer then tiger beer lol...

stupid of me right? being so sad while 'they' are probably happily pak thor-ing... my friend was rite.. he said why r u so sad? ur living in sadness caused by them but they don't seem to be sad at all.. in fact they are very happy... so y waste ur energy n sorrows on them???

ya well i'm stupid so sue me...

today met his 'other half' (well i HAD to since we're coursemates.. hell...) in class... and well... i had to say that i did pretty well... cos d guilty looks stolen upon me every now n then made me feel better hehehe... (omigod i sound soooo sick hehe)

谁心虚丫?不是我... siapa termakan cili dialah yang terasa pedas... (hmm.. my Bm is still good hehe)

turns out that 'he' is quite the heart breaker... another gal in pa oso liked him but stopped herself.. lucky her... oh n became his foster mom instead... so i used to call her '岳母大人' haha.. she has already said that she won't approve of their relationship... hah.. so there... she likes me more =P (ok well she can't really do anything oso lol...)

after a brief n unavoidable conversation with u know who, (no NOT lord voldemort lol... oh n we are in d same group.. how sad...) which ended really fast... i aimlessly walked around college... which is actually quite small... T.T then went into the staffroom in pretension of looking for my photography lecturer not once but TWICE.. d interior design lecturer must think i'm crazy lol... but aren't all of us design students a little........

i'm so aimless... i hav nobody to walk around with me... or to eat lunch with.. cos most of d time it's with 'him'... oh no.... now that he's not around.. or won't be around for me.. i'm sooo lonely... lucky pin was kind enough to accompany me.. oh n cockroach too.. (a guy la not a real roach)

now d only thing left is to face 'him'... if i can face 'him'... then i should be ok liao... oh n oso face them together....... which is like d boss lvl hahaha...(influenced by too many games liao haha...)

latest update- seems like he won't be transferring next sem but AFTER next sem... haiyo might as well finish it la... left with 3 sems oso dun wanna finish... memang idiot... =P
reason? in order to get into ASK u need to audition... seems that if ur not 'geng' enough they won't let u in... so he's kinda worried bout that... btw he's gonna study dance in ASK... as opposed to performing arts in our college..

juz wondering...... are Performing Arts guys all THAT weird...... i mean... gavin yap is weird too....but he's HOT!!! lol... (if u dunno who he is then it's apparent u dun watch theatre at d actors' studio =P) ok.. terpesong. paiseh....

oook.. wateva... i'm still a hopelessly lost case... T.T

i guess that's all for now................